An Introduction

Hello friends and welcome to my blog! This blog is all about my journey and struggle dealing with anxiety, panic disorder, and depression. I've found so much comfort over the past year hearing stories from people going through what I'm going through and knowing I'm not alone. I've always found so much joy in helping others and hope that by sharing my story I can help at least one person feel less alone through their experience with this illness. That being said, I can't guarantee you will relate to everything I say, that this will be a light-hearted and happy blog, or that I won't eventually run out of things to say, but I can guarantee that I will be 100% honest and real with you through the good and the bad. 

Who Am I You Ask?

 

For those of you who don't know me, my name is Christy (actually if we're going by legal names my name is Christine) and I am currently 24 years old. I recently graduated from Chapman University with my BS in Business Administration with an emphasis in Management but I am currently living at home and unemployed. (Yay anxiety!) I have two loving parents who I am endlessly thankful for because although I could write about how awesome they are forever, I will sum it up by saying they never give up on me even when I want to give up on myself and I will never be able to express to them just how much that truly means to me. I also have two brothers, one who is about three years older than me and one who is about three years younger than me. So not only am I the only girl but I am also the middle child. My brothers are hands down two of the most intelligent and hilarious human beings I know, and I love them far more than I am willing to admit. I always longed for a sister growing up so in college I did what most people in this position would do and I joined a sorority. Alpha Gamma Delta not only brought me sisters but also provided me with some of my most real and true friendships that I know will last for years to come. On top of my immediate family and my "sisters" my extended family are all gifts in my life and I don't know how I could survive without them. I honestly consider myself spoiled when it comes to being surrounded by amazing people in my life. 

What Do I Know?


I will do a post about my whole journey to how I got to the point where I am today regarding my anxiety but for now I will share that I struggle with anxiety daily, I have been diagnosed with panic disorder, and at times I go through rounds of depression (currently in one of those sad times now). I'm on a daily medication, don't go anywhere without my emergency supply of Xanax, and I have a therapist who I talk with every week. I'm fully committed to fighting this invisible illness and after spending so much time ashamed and embarrassed I'm finally ready to open up about what my life is truly like.


If you embark on this journey with me, first of all thank you! Second of all, I may be struggling but I would love to help anyone I can by answering questions, offering tips and tricks, or even just commiserating over how much anxiety sucks.  We are in this together and I look forward to fighting this fight with you whether it’s you who is struggling or someone you know. We can do this!

 So I will end with this quote from Winnie the Pooh: "You are braver than you believe, smarter than you seem, and stronger than you think."

 Until next time 💜

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  1. theinnerwoman.blogspot.comMarch 1, 2017 at 5:00 AM

    Thank you so much for your courage to tackle the tough issues in life and to do so honestly and openly. I went through many years of struggling with depression and walked through it and came out the other side, a stronger more authentic human being and woman. A big part of my healing was writing about. So keep up the good work.

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    1. Christy GentaMarch 1, 2017 at 2:04 PM

      Thank you so much for your support! I'm happy to here of your success in fighting depression and hope I can one day say the same thing :)

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    2. Christy GentaMarch 4, 2017 at 2:36 PM

      I just realized in all my excitement about the support I'm getting I used the wrong hear and thanks to my anxiety I need it publicly known that I know the correct meaning of here/hear LOL

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