Why Me?

I don't know about you, but when I am feeling down and anxious it is so incredibly easy to throw myself a pity party. It's not that I want to, it's just what my brain is telling me to do and I don't have the energy to fight it. My pity party always takes the form of "why me" statements. Just an example of a few:
  • Why is this happening to me?
  • Why do I need to stay home and work on myself while other people who have anxiety are leading normal lives?
  • Why doesn't my progress always stay?
  • Why do I have to fight the same battles more than once?

These are just a few of the thousands of thoughts that cross my mind during one of my pity parties. They are so unhelpful, but yet when I'm already down I really struggle with fighting them. They consume me and then I start to believe that I am incapable of getting better and that I'm just incredibly unlucky.

Wow, how annoying right? Even just writing this is embarrassing, because at this moment these thoughts seem so juvenile and negative. I don't know why anyone would want to put up with me during these times, so I'm forever grateful for those who do.

I found this quote I like that goes:

"Instead of saying why me, say try me."

 
I absolutely love this quote, but if I didn't say it was hard I would be lying. I can do it now that the moment of my pity party has passed and I'm feeling strong and empowered, but when I'm in those low moments this quote seems like a joke. It's hard to get out of those low moments when your brain is almost celebrating them and cheering them on. I'm trying to get better at decreasing the time I am in a low state of mind and I think fighting my rush to throw myself a pity party is the first step. Going forward, I'm going to try as hard as I can to turn my "why statements" into "try statements".


I don't really know where else to start with fighting this besides self-talk, so I would love any advice or suggestions on how to better believe in myself during these down times, instead of feeling sorry for myself. I also know a lot of this comes from my inability to trust myself, but I'll save that conversation for next week's blog post.  

Until next time. 💜

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  1. UnknownSeptember 16, 2017 at 4:58 PM

    The negative self arguing is never fun. Sometimes you lose and sometimes you win. I try everytime the negative is winning to and come up with some silver lining and hold on to it. ❤ and when i lose that battle i just remind myself when i come up gor air that I will win the next one. Never give up. One day will win more then lose.

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    1. UnknownSeptember 16, 2017 at 5:02 PM

      This is great advice, I will definitely try it out! Thank you so much ❤️

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