Dancing Through Anxiety

Today I'm feeling uninspired. I have so many different topics and things I want to write about but none of them feel ready to put out into the universe. After sitting and  thinking and procrastinating I finally decided that I want to spend this post talking about therapy or, probably more appropriately, I should say ranting about therapy. We live in a society where therapy is viewed as a negative. There are so many moments where you read or hear about some alternative to therapy that's better because it's "cheaper than therapy" and also includes the benefit of not having to admit you have a therapist. That may be true. Therapy isn't cheap, running or going to the beach or talking to friends is 100% cheaper but it's not the same. In my mind therapy is irreplaceable. There's something so freeing about being able to ramble your truest thoughts and have someone help you work through them. I don't have to worry about not making sense, I don’t have ...

So these past few days (which has felt like forever) I've been stuck with some kind of stomach bug which has led me to do nothing but sleep and rest. Since I was already feeling kind of down and out of it I honestly just wasn't in the mood to dig into my feelings and write a post about them. Instead I thought I would do something different and share 25 fun facts with you all about myself. I tried to be positive with my facts but let me tell you, it was really hard for me to find 25 wholly positive things I wanted to share so I did the best I can. After a while it became easier and eventually I really enjoyed doing it and hope that I can use this to continue viewing myself in a more positive light.  1. I am obsessed with my cat and think she is the cutest thing in the world. Our favorite game is hide and seek.  2. My eyes change colors depending on the weather, my mood, what I'm wearing etc. They can be yellow, grey, and really green. They have often been co...

I am writing this post from beautiful Santa Cruz and although it's been cold and rainy I've been having a great time and more importantly I MADE IT! This trip has been fun and relaxing for me but it also has helped me so much in learning what I am capable of and really testing me on my ability to listen to my body and put my needs first when necessary. I thought I would recount my vacation so far for you all and explain how I've managed to make it through (not always but mostly) a variety of situations with little to no anxiety. Friday: The drive. This was easily the part of the trip I was most hesitant about. I had more nerves concerning a six hour drive than spending a week away from home so I had tons of preparations in place and different plans for how to make it through this drive with minimal anxiety. The morning of the drive I was considering taking a Xanax because I just couldn't see how I was going to be okay. I don't like taking Xanax unless I...

This Friday I am road tripping up to Northern California with my parents to spend a week with my Aunt and Uncle in Santa Cruz. I am so excited for this change of scenery and time with family, but I am also pretty nervous because this is the first time I'll be traveling long distance in over a year. My parents will be spending half the time up there with me but they will be spending half the time elsewhere, which is a pretty big deal for me. My therapist and I came up with making a backpack that I could always have with me when traveling to help conquer my anxiety if it arises. This kit helped me so much as I was getting reacquainted with being in a car for a longer period of time and really made my trip to San Diego to meet Jenny Lawson go smoothly. I thought I would share with you all its contents because it has been a tremendous benefit to have with me when I adventure out of the house and hope that it can help you as well! My Anxiety Survival Kit Stress Ball - My st...